Thursday, May 27, 2010

Quick Update

I'm doing good. I'm acting & dancing & doing makeup & keeping kids out of trouble. I'm getting thinner. What else is there? I miss you all. I don't even have time to read your blogs. :'( But my heart is with you. I think about you all the time.Stay strong.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

'Til We Meet Again

I leave tomorrow for drama camp. I'm so excited!!! All you girls' comments were so sweet & supportive. I'll miss being able to blog as often as I want to. I'll get on when I can, though. I fully expect to weigh 90 pounds when I get back.
Stay strong over the summer all of ya! <3 I hope & pray each one of you is able to find happiness in your life, whether you find it in Ana or in recovery.
I love you all!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Rule #1- Don't Joke About Weight Loss

I was talking with some of my friends yesterday at lunch. Somehow the subject of different diets came up, & we were all kinda kidding around. Unfortunately, I know too much. And I said too much. And it led to a facebook conversation with a friend who doesn't know I have an eating disorder, but is getting a little suspicious. I'll copy & paste parts of it.

it isn't healthy for any person to lose 8 pounds in a week
don't laugh it isn't healthy
i wouldn't do anything like that long-term. i know better than that.
you shouldn't do it period

losing 2 pounds a week is the most that is healthy... 8 pounds is alot especially when someone is underweight already
i am not underweight
you said so yourself today
no, i said if i lost 25 pounds i would be
your BMI is underweight
isn't it?
what is your BMI now?
point something
well you are then on the very low side of normal.
losing 8 pounds is not a good idea.
over a month for someone who needs to lose it maybe...but one week and someone who is borderline underweight...
Nat,I am saying this because I am worried about you. I don't want you to do something that hurts your body.
It's not like you think.

Of course, what she doesn't know is that it IS like she thinks. And that my BMI is 18.2 which is in fact, slightly underweight. But she doesn't need to know that. And I'm keeping my mouth shut from now on.

Monday, May 3, 2010


She's back! She's really back. I should be sad she isn't recovering. I am in a way. But I've missed her. And I know how hard it is to feel like you have to recover when you don't want to. is her new blog.
More later, girlies. My head hurts.